Thursday, April 25, 2013

365 days in Delhi

After living in southern dreamland for 6 years I was back to the northern kingdom.It was like The Prodigal Son returns.My 1st day rather 1st evening in Delhi was great, I took a train from Hyderabad and was dropped to remote small station named Safdurjung Railway Station.It was such a small station that it didn't have any portors and to mu luck i was carrying 5 huge luggage's.I had to call my childhood chuddi buddy Aamir for my rescue and like any other best friend would have done he listen to my call and came to help me.I was moved from city of tradition to city of rudeness.Next day somehow i reached my office after inquiring and asking the way.And the monotonous life started...I took 3 days of training's to enhance my skills and for my good luck i got a project after that.It was totally different environment for me, from a shy guy who sits on PC stares it for next 9 hrs; i was the enthusiastic person who was lost in this IT world.I was living my college life again. I made some amazing friends here.The fun in cab, office bunking and going for movies or to have lunch or going on a Date with the Special someone ;)Then the most amazing thing happened Dad got promoted and transferred to Delhi.Now, I started living with my family.Things changed a lot from a carefree guy who was not answerable to anyone, use to do anything he wants. Now i was answerable from where am I going and Y am I spending so much.But that's also fun, someone has said na "Choori main bhi maaza hai.."Then my College best friend also moved to Delhi, that was like cherry on the cake.After looong time Imran came to Delhi to stay and we had the masti of lifetime.Late night driving, Late night movie show, night driving on India Gate....We did everything, every possible stuff.It was new year, New Year with family. And you left me all alone in Delhi. :(Day passed from the carefree guy to workaholic.Then I saw the most dreadful face of Delhi. How men ill treat women in Delhi roads, home, office all place.In the heart of our country how women are unsafe and felt so bad..Experienced 1st Earthquake of my life. Now Its again April... 25th of April the day I came to Delhi..

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Flashback 2012


Flashback 2012
This blog is not about the corruption campaign which we had going in the last year nor its about the political drama in India nor about US presidential election nor about the  petrol issue nor the fight over the quotas nor women empowerment nor rape cases happening nor the killings of innocent around the world.

2012 was happening as well as boring.

It started with my best friend’s wedding to moving to having an awesome weekend with my best buddies.
It started from lonely days in Hyderabad to happening days in Delhi.
Below are the high points.
  • Pankhuri’s wedding
  • Lonely sad mood
  • Bench in hyd
  • Lonely days
  • Weekends wid prashanth
  • Moving out of hyd
  • Moving in wid Aamir
  • 1st birthday in delhi
  • New place new surroundings
  • New project
  • New frds
  • Ups n downs in relationship
  • Patching up wid frds
  • Dad’s promotion and transfer to delhi
  • Moving in with dad
  • Living with family
  • Tough time
  • A sorry from a long lost friend
  • Rishav moving to Delhi
  • Bonding with a friend.
  • Best three days with imran n aamir
  • And the year end with peaceful note
Most important this year I am with my family after 7 loooong years.. 
Mom and Dad are super happy to be with me but I am getting fat with mom made food, need to start gym.

For 2013:-
  • Gym
  • Higher Study
  • Start writing again
  • Start savings ;)
Wish All of U a Happy Year

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

On Lonely Roads

We're born alone, we live alone, and we will die alone.

Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.
The illusion never lasts long. You have to wake up from the sleep, you can't sleep always and keep dreaming how beautiful and how you are surrounded by the people.

We can't live like Truman Burbank( Jim Carry from The Truman Show). The place where everything is nearly perfect. The whole life is written script and we all know what is going to happen. We can never decide who can be in our life or our part is over and the show is over so you are out of the show. In real world it doesn't happen like people come unannounced they live there make themself important to you, start making you feel special and after sometime their comes complications and people find that it might get messy and the best option is to get away from it. No one wants to be with you.

I love being alone, but i need someone to talk and I need someone to share my emotions. But in today's world no one wants to be with you. Everyone looks for the time pass, so that his time is passed smoothly and no one has any prob.

Then a big question arises "How can live so lonely?"

The answer to that is very simple Internet. Hmmmm what can u do on Internet browse.. Then the only option left in front of you to live a virtual live on the Internet. that you can achieve with the help of Twitter, Facebook, Myspace and lot of other social networking site.

People get addicted to such social websites. And trust me this is the best place to do bakar(to have fun). You can open your heart and write whatever comes to your head. And make a stand fight for your points. Their you don't have to think about others emotions that you might hurt a friend, who cares if I think I am right I will fight for it. But in today's world person who spends most of the time in fornt of the comp is either a SoftwareEngineer ;) or a person who doesn't have a real friend.

Or having a lonesome time is also amazing. going for the movie alone, roaming around alone is the mast fun you can have.

Or best thing you can do is adopt a pet. You will enjoy taking care and the attention you will receive from it.

Or develop some hobby which You will love to do.
As we all know the thing which our body is obliged to do is called Play and our body is not obliged to do is the work.
Their are different categories of people around you:-
  • who cares about you in true sense.
  • who just want to be with you because they think you are cool or happening
  • who wants masala, gossip so that they can fill small place in their hearts.
Its up to you to chose what kind of people you want to be. whether you want to be fake and enjoy the life of the person who is not you, or to be the person who is actually you.

But the true fact is that my friend no one wants to see the true thing about the person. Because how much true you want to be it will be boring for them and they won't like you at all. Because you will always find 3 category of people around you. 1st category is rarest.

If you have got a true and devoted friends trust me never let them go away. They are like precious gems for you.

The most important thing, nothing is permanent. and thats the beauty of life.





Monday, February 13, 2012

My Best Friend Wedding :) :)


Marriages are made in heaven. Esp I am found of LOVE-MARRIAGES.
Weddings always excites me esp for the food and then meeting old friends and making new ones.
But this was an important one for me..

Everyone has seen Hollywood blockbuster My Best Friend Wedding starting Julia Roberts.. awwww the Pretty Woman :):)

Let me not deviate from the topic.. This wedding is about my school friend and my bestest friend whom i found after 3yrs after school and since then we have been in constant touch. Sharing our joys, sharing our sorrows, lending shoulders to cry, giving advises, scolding each other and most important ready to do anything for each other.

Now lets be back to main topic I managed to take leave from 19th of Jan so that I can reach Dehradun before 1 day for the marriage. Oh Yes Guy is from Dehradun and the marriage was supposed to be held from the beautiful city of Dehradun.

When I reached to the wedding hotel, I met the most beautiful bride with the full hand mehndi. She was looking brilliant in yellow color Saree. It was amazing to see her after such a loong time.As soon as she met me she started introducing me to all her family members individually and then to her friends who were busy dancing on spicy numbers played by DJ. It was sooo amazing their when we both got down to the party hall. DJ was playing pretty hot cheesy and awesome track, it reminded me the club we went in GOA but their it was only English music. Being an Indian we love Bollywood music munni badnaam hui to sheila ki jawani adding to current new chikni chameli.

After that dinner was served.

Panky made me sit on a place and introduced me to all her friends and relatives. I was showed to my room and slept. oohhhh i felt the cold then.. chilly feeling of chilly waves... It was amazing.

20th Jan
The Wedding Day
I met her in morning she was as usual soo enthusastic sharing and telling everything as if there is no stop for her.

I reached the hall where fucntion was about to take place, Pandit told aunty Baraat has left the place and will reach in time.

Baraat was on time exactly at 8:30.

The folk music was on and people were dancing on the music beats. It was great to see so much cold outside but the joy of Ur friend, brother,sister, son or daughter getting married makes you forget all the feeling. The only feeling you have inside is of happiness.
Mohit (Panky's bro) lifted Kuldeep on his shoulder till the stage. It was so great to look a brother's love for his sister. The happiness and love which cant be explained by any words.
The best part of the weddings are the rituals or the naughtiness in the wedding. As Kuldeep (The Groom) sat on the stage his shoes went missing, its the trend in indian wedding bride's young sister hides the shoes of the groom and then blackmail them for money in return of the shoes.
Poor guy had to sit without shoes in whole wedding ceremony.
Jaimaal is one of the important part of the wedding.
Its the time when bride welcomes groom.
Panky(The Bride) was walked to stage with her cousins and friends. The nervousness was easily visible on her face and walks. But as soon as she saw Kuldeep and he held her hand she felt save. That's the true love and that's what its demanded by each relationship.

After the jaimaal the photo shoot started there were 2 photographers 1 from each side and 2 videographers 1 from each side. They started capturing the moment. Its sooo painful for any person to stand at a place flashes keep coming. The more over keep smiling through out the captures.
It's good to capture the moment but sometimes we have to look for others how will they feel. She was about to faint because of that. Huh hate insane people around.

Then somehow they took a break and went for dinner. It was a traditional Veg cuisine. The best you can have any where. The paneer, aloo, manchurian, garam garam gulab jamun and most imp tikki chats.. sooo yummy...

Then it was time for puja.
And at Shubh Muharat the bride n groom came for phere.
It was my 1st Hindu wedding which I was witnessing from begining till end.
It was amazing to see how the traditions are followed.
Starting with ''Kanayadaan'' which is the handing away of the bride to the groom in return for a promise by the groom that he will cherish her forever. According to Indian culture and beliefs, she has now become the responsibility and property of her husband's household -- her fate is tied up with theirs. From this point onwards, her husband is her priority. The kanyadaan is the first step in married life.
The "Saat Pherey" or Seven Vows -- the seven rounds of the bride and groom around the holy ring of fire. These seven vows indicate the strength of the sacred bond of marriage. With every vow the couple make one promise to each other -- and vow to uphold that promise. At the end of the Saath Pherey they have made seven promises to each other, on the basis of which they start a committed married life.

Whether its Hindu, Muslim or a Christian Wedding the most important thing must be in all the three wedding is there must be heart to heart connection. And promise to be together live looooong.
And promise to Grow Old with you partner, that's when people need each other.

The moment was like whole world has stopped and blessing the bride and groom.
They were lawfully Husband and Wife.



Mr & Mrs Kothari.
And like the Disney Princess Story ends...
Now King and Queen Lived happily. :) :)


Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Confused is the state of my MIND

Confused was the pen name of my blog.

I was confused and I am confused about evrything around me.
Whether asking out my 1st crush which my best friend later did and i helped him doing tat.
Or deciding about my carrer.
I got 95percentile in GATE and a call from a german university and still i chose to join an IT firm.

Previously i didn't wanted to join MBA and now I wanna join the elite college of MBA.

I got decent marks in 10th but not good enough to get into the prestigious college where my friend took admissions. I would have taken admission in a gud CBSE school but i prefered taking addmission into the college where i don't have to attend college and will take up the coaching classes so that i can study for my entrance exams. But i didn't have that much clue that time that for evrything basic 12th marks is also required.

After learing the lesson and not getting into elite institute due to sectional cut off. But I got into top private college in Bangalore but that was not liked by mom. As everyone has an image about bangalore that only through donations you can study there.

I clearly enjoyed my 4 yrs of engineering life. 1st year I was concentrated on my studies but after that it was nothing. I use to enjoy the life, and I had my own terms.

But now things changed.. I cant be soo reckless and immature. I have gone through different phases friends who are very close to me know it very well. I just realised that I am still like a college going guy.. Its high time need to change my behaviour.

Right now I am again confused as I have to start preparation for CAT and GMAT.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

2011






When you see your life it will be full of masala story and full action dhamaka. But it depends on how you present it. on Today's date what is spicy n hot that will only sell. Presentation has become a key ingredient on everything. whether you are preparing food, presenting your proposals, thinking of buying any items. things which attract you, you will go for it.

2011 made me realise soo many things..

1. Never ever trust anyone. (few exception are their)

2. Never tell your feeling to anyone they can miss use it.

3. Never tell your opinion to ur friends you can be honest to them but they won't.

4. Never let someone go away from your life, whom you really adore.

5. When something is meant to be broken it will just take the smallest issue and everything will be gone.

6. People just say things and they never live up to the mark (valid to me too).

7. Great to be working for MS project and working in Accenture, Great Decision. Got a Promotion :) :)

8. When U want to enjoy U can enjoy when you are alone. U don need group of people to have fun.

9. You will never be satisfied with what you have, you will always be cribbing for what you don't have.

10. Great friends are hard to find, when you get them never lose them.

11. True friends will always be with you, after how much fight you have, when you talk you will talk as you talk everyday.

12. Never keep grudges with anyone. if anyone comes smiling and give a hand of friendship go and grab it.

13. Thankful to Allah to whatever is happening because in everything their is hidden agenda and he must be thinking something better for you always.


2011 brought loads of happiness, tension, sadness, excitement, travelling new people. It was a full package deal.


Met the most cherished person of my life in the middle of year.

Had amazing trips to most desirable destination of India with frds and one of the most exciting and memorable holidays (Pondi n Goa trip).

Goa Biker's

Night Life in Pondi

I got ready for the things which i was never. I lived a professional life, tackled hard situations and conditions.I met a girl also and having a fairy life but actual things are never so dreamy. Things are more practical than you think. The things which happens in movies never happens in real life time.


Fun welcoming 2011
A night wid KKR n DC





 I witnessed my 1st live cricket match, cheered for my team and saw a thrilling match and my superstar SRK.

My dad use to say now its too much fun for you and everyone seemed to be so helpful but when you will be  in need of them in the real life situation then you will realise who is really with you.

Missed a flight, a train and again got a flight and boarded 15mins before its schedule departure.
Spent the night in an Airport, on roads.
Went to the maximum speed possible in a car.
Drove the bike on the edge of the road.
Was in air and wished I remain their forever.
Took a deep dive in an ocean and learnt how deep and how much there is in life which is unkown to us.
Lived on the edge.
I understood living alone is amazing, going for a movie alone is the most fun you can have...
after reading this you can call me lunatic but trust me its much more fun than anything.
I want to live in the smallest happiness which i can get from the life. Because I don't know how long I will live and whether i will get up from my sleep next morning.

I was living a fairy tale life in 2011. But as 2011 comes to end i got up from the dreamworld. Now I have a lot lined up for 2012.


After seeing me report sheet for 2011, have to work hard in 2012 and have to achieve a lot more.

I have learnt a lot of lessons in this year witnessed some of the worst time of my life and some of the memorable moments.

New Year's Day is every man's birthday. Lets Celeberate and Enjoy.. :) :)

Happy New Year to All :)



Thursday, November 24, 2011

You...

Do you believe in fate???


Do you trust strangers???

Do you believe in love without 1st sight???

And most important do you believe that u can get your soul mate when you stop Searching for them???

The most cheerful, the most daring, and the girl who lives with their own terms and decides what is best for her. But as we all know life is a cruel bitch. It

Always react in bad manner with good people. And that what happened to her and

She was losing all her charms. She made few wrong decisions and for that she was blaming herself for everything. And she was not able to laugh or smile properly but as we know few things just happens and no one has control over it.

And when it happens it happens for best.

She met a guy through a common friend. First she was very very reserved as 1st impression was very bad about him. Slowly they started exchanging msgs over Facebook. I use to wait for her msgs. As when she will reply to me on FB.. Since I had Fb on my mobile, i use to reply to her instantly.

We use to talk a lil.. Then slowly when friendship becomes closer then we exchanged our official ID. I asked her cell no but she didn’t give. But later through her official mail ID i got her no ;) and we started msging :)

And the closeness started. I was looking for a close friend and she was in need of a patient listener.

Then the spark started. She was getting what she was looking for a patient listener who can listen to all her problem. And she wanted to get out of few problems and she needed a friend to guide her and hold her hand and pull her away from all the problems n tension.

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

I know u are the fav kid of your parents, they know ur silence. When you’re quite your brother and parents understands that something is wrong. And now you have one more caring person for you who cares and want to protect you from everything in dis world.

You have become silent because of the wrong decision you took.. You don’t trust anything now. You want to keep all your steps carefully so that you don't get hurt anytime in future. But now you have got a person in your life who understands you and have changed a lot of things for you so that it doesn't affect you.

He calls you Angel, Baby, his princess. You don't say anything, but I know you love being called that. You too want to be felt special and must be felt different from everything.

You changed your style for myself and still carried it and walked in style as you have never walked like that before.

You can cry all night and show that nothing has happened but still he comes to know that something was wrong and you are not ok.

You love to cook for him, and when he praise about your cook you feel you’re the best chef in this world and feel shy.

He honors you by asking your advice, to show that to take d smallest decision he needs your help, and how much your decision means to him.

There are few instances where there are soo many problems are their but she never let them affect it to her professional life. That shows that she is determined to what she wants. She doesn't want to mix her professional and personal life. She has got some ambitions and she wants to achieve it. She knows very well how to get to them. I will be as a support to her whenever she will need and help her achieving her goals.

She gets baffled when she is not given proper attention. But she never complains about it. But it’s always in her heart. She has a lot of things in her heart but never wants it to be out. I am trying to find a passage so that I can go through it and find all her worries and solve it.

He protects you and when you are feeling scared, and make you feel that everything is fine. And that’s true.

She gets shy when I stare at her. She is like pure Indian girl who knows her value and knows how to keep me happy. She can be rebellion for me as she can get out of her traditional or custom things to become what anyone can’t think of.

She is cutest girl, her dimples can put for sleepless nights. She has the charm from which she can give you sleepless nights with her one cute smile.

The way she orders you, you can never say no to her. You get bounded to do the work she assigns to you. And you will love to be ordered by her.

She never gets angry when you get angry. But she enjoys it when I am angry on her, and try to tease you more so that you get angry and she does things and make you calm down.

I know you don’t want to do anything as such which will affect your parents. You want a plain simple life. But everyone wants some excitement in life, because plain and simple is boring. I promise you that you will be the happiest and jolliest person. But I can achieve it only by your help. You have to trust me and follow my lead. Then you will see that everything will be the best and you will enjoy to fullest.

We should not be the prisoner of past, just learn from the mistakes which we did in past and must not do anything like that in future. But when you are getting second chance to be happy and live your life as you want then grab the opportunity. Don’t let it go from your hand.

You be like a Junglee Billi, and let your heart flow and do what you want to do. I am next to you to take care of you and stop you from doing anything wrong.

She is very sentimental girl. Whenever some person says something really meaningful she remembers it very well and tries to keep it to herself. She knows what it means. But seldom she took wrong decision and was not able to judge a person correctly. But now she has a person with her who is her Best Friend, Boy Friend and Future Husband.

She is the luckiest girl and I am the Luckiest Guy to be with her.  

She is been treated as princess by her parents brothers and sisters and when you will be coming to my home you will be treated as Queen. As Mrs. Ahmad.

People will give example of your life as how successful you are. You will be the role model for everyone around.



Many love her but she chooses to love me…